The brave... the ones who stay in fight even after the odds look their worst. The poor yet noble souls who stick around to see what happens after the dust has settled. I've never considered myself to be one of those souls... in fact I consider myself a coward.
When things become tough or too difficult my first reaction is to flee. I left home... Edo... left the palace Harem... and now I am thinking of leaving the palace all together. I have found myself in a bit of a love triangle. Truth be told I really don't like the idea of hurting anyone... I can't even bring myself to owning a slave here... How in the name of all that is pure do I keep finding myself in these situations?
Perhaps it's karma? I did run away from first fiancee. He wanted to keep me in his gaudy mansion of his... like I was just another one of his damned trinkets! That's not love to me.
A drastic cowardice route would be for me to return to the seas. I could leave everything that constrains me... How the oceans sing to my soul every evening. Those teasing waves... how I miss the feel of their soft caress. I could go for a swim... yet the sensations would not be the same. I am not as in tune with the seas with a human body.
I was able to have a very important talk with Princess Lexie. She took me to a private home... following a hidden path. There, I told her the truth about how I felt about each male. And she told me a few words of wisdom. Choose the one who treats me the best... like a precious gem.
I suppose this means I need to have a very long chat with Lord Kito. I am not even sure of my feelings will be returned. It could be yet another one sided love... ahh the sands are filled with such tales.
Looks like I shall be paying closer attention to this restless heart of mind.. I just hope I find the correct path... and not one that leads to more sadness.
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