I have oddly surprising news... Aizen visited the Sultana recently and asked her permission to court me. While, Princess Page said her highness is still undecided, there will be a few rules in place if both parties agree to it. Just the other day Lord Aizen vowed to protect the palace from any enemies... he even complemented myself and Princess Page, showing off a softer side. Needless to say this softer side is far different then what I have seen before... far different then when he first tricked me into being his captive...
My mind travels back to this idea.. the idea that true love is blind. I can't believe it... but I am falling in love with Aizen. Yet, part of me is still unsure.
Marriage is something extremely serious. I've run from another who once asked for my hand... yet, I have no plans on trying to escape. A part of me knows that Lord Aizen will follow. He has my free will... owns my body and does with it as he wishes.
In truth my heart has never felt more restless. A part of me wishes to give myself fully to him... to offer him my spirit and my heart... Ah yes, to keep myself open to him like some love sick silly little slave girl who has just been bought at auction by the master she has been yearning for. Alas, the other part of me wishes to remain free... to live freely... to love freely... to be able to move away freely unattached to anything.
Added to the many other conflicting feelings is the fact that I have never truly let go of Lord Kito. What am I to do? My feelings divided... there is no clear path for me to take. I suppose this means I just need to trust my gut instinct... and maybe the words of a few close friends.
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