The trip away from Ireem had been a long and sorrowful one... I paused to rest only once on this journey. Eastward, I headed... to a tiny island called Cacao. Ah, I recall it was a mystical place... something of which amazes me even as I think back. On first glance it appeared to be untouched by mankind.
Needless to say I almost thought I was on the wrong island... that is when an odd figure in a dark indigo hued robe approached me. The woman appeared blind... yet said she had been waiting for me. She lead me to a small hut covered in moss. There, in exchange for a noir ocean pearl, she gave me a small vial.
"Take this once you return to the place you call home. Think of the one you wish to forget. Only take this if you are serious... as this might cause you to forget large parts of your life that were tied in with this person"
In truth, I didn't pay much attention to this warning... in fact I ended up drinking the vial the moment I found another safe island to rest... big mistake!
I recall... everything seemed to go dark. Waking up after.. I really don't know how much time had past. Yet, I didn't waist to quickly search my mind... I could remember Kito... him leaving for Nippon. Mhmm... then emptiness. Darkness... at that point I simply had to stop! How my head hurt so... I could recall returning to the seas with Kito, but not the full reason why.
Another odd result, is that my hair had turned the strange shade of people... faded pale opal towards the end. Blahh... I have a bad feeling about all this. But... if I went through the trouble of all of this... it worked after all! And now I feel so much better...free from something I feel that was constraining me. Mmhmm... whoever that might be. I know I can try to find out who by simply looking back... but I figure if I went through so much trouble to forget ... there is no real reason to try to remember what or whoever I wanted out of my mind that badly...
It's coming down to the end... sense I have not been impregnated, the subtle opal tint lingers. So... once the sun rises my hair remains that shade! The other thing that lingered, was the sexual drive. Mmhmmm... It seems that everything is setting off this urge. Someone mentioned soft... human... flesh... mmhmm, I could have pounced the next thing that moved then and there!
Making things worse... or well, stirring up that deep inner passion...Aizen. It's as if a part of me just can't let him go. Even a simple swat on the rear got me purring. Blaaah.. it's bad... because Kito's away! I worry... what will happen if I give into temption? Doesn't help that one of my initial reasons for leaving Aizen is no more... So now they each stand on equal footing. I guess... damn it damn it damn it... heart make up your mind already! I can't take this...
Needless to say after Aizen left to hunt up blood, I headed to the waters! Mer-form seems safest... I've never had a sexual encounter in this form... At this point I really don't call that luck. Mmhmm... how I have been dreaming of making love in this form...ever sense my return to the waters. But, I suppose that dream of passion shall have to wait.
But going back to my scales and hair... I am starting to worry. According to my clan, my hair and scales should return to normal. But, there is something odd. My scales should have started to turn blue... even if my hair isn't. Sadly, sense I am so far from home I have no way of contacting an elder.
Maybe I can find some herbs to calm my libido... looks like I shall have to visit the market.
I think I have solved things... I am going to... have a magi completely remove Aizen from my memory... they have such spells. There... I can't lust after someone I don't know.
It seems like another ordinary day in Ireem... one of those days that stirs the blood. There is nothing new to write concerning the outside world. It seems the Bedu are upset over their losses... and have targeted the Dark Knights.
Not that I care -- in any case. I've taken a break from healing... something about the sight of blood has gotten to me. It just breaks my heart every time I hear about friend going against friend all over a shiny crystal! Blah.... once again, I find myself wishing I could be like those heartless bitches. Then I could honestly say I didn't care... and spend my time sleeping my way to the top... yeah.... hopping from male to male like there was no tomorrow!
Sadly... I still have a brain... even though bruised, my heart's still somewhat... hmmm... not sure where I am going with this. Just going to leave it and move on to other rantings.
As always, stories of poor slave girls... no, stupid slave girls who were foolish to trust. It's come to the point where I honestly believe that most males in Ireem cannot be trusted... But they do prove that males who think they can handle trying to keep more then one woman... honestly don't understand the attention that female's require. And that... deep down most women are
Or maybe it's come down to the point where... I just want to settle down with one person... one person who just wants me... and not a million other women? Haha monotony in Ireem, like a virgin slave girl, doesn't really exist.
Ah, times like this make me yearn for the safety of the Oiran house. Things were so much simpler then. I would wake... and head to the baths. After a long soak and a few colorful chats with the others... onto breakfast. Most of the afternoon would then be spent preparing for that evening.
The setting sun would find me painting my face a soft shade of white. A little bit of crimson would accent my eyes... along with my lower lip. Ah, but not in the same fashion as a maiko. No, the shades used was far more bold. Once finished... a stylist would come to brush my raven locks into something amazing... accented by gold ornaments.
Once done, I would sit with the other ladies of the house in something that, to me now... seems very much like a cage. Men would then approach the bars. If I were lucky that evening... then I would get a client... If not the evening would be spent in the room... listening to the other unlucky girls chatter away.
-sigh- I wonder what would happen if I never came to Ireem at all? Then I would have never meet Kito... heh or Aizen for that matter.
Ah well... back to the sands! Maybe I can find a story that has nothing to do with "that pregnant slave girl" or "I got attacked by 'x' for the 'blank time... so I am going to do something stupid"... geeze... if I did not know any better I would swear the lot of the people in this city are on drugs!
Only ten more days until the month of love is over... I can already feel some of those intense feelings start to die down. Ugh... not nearly enough! There's still this deep primal urge to copulate... When I write this I don't mean quiet love making in some little dark corner! Mmhmm, I mean rough sex on the beach! No better! A deep passionate love making session within the cold ocean depths!
Come to think of it... I have never made love in the ocean, as a mer. This is the first time I have spent the month of love as a full mermaid. These feelings, mhmm -- it's just so maddening! How long can I last, burning with this deep desire?
I'm going to overflow... I can just feel it in my very being. This worries what little sanity and or self control I have left. I could very well find myself in the control of another lover... or maybe an old flame.
Soooo... in an attempt to try to cool myself down I have worn clothing! Well... a dark aqua sari wrap minus the tight fitting choli.
Actually... I spent most of the day away from the city... hidden away in a deep underwater grove far off the coast. Little Mizuchi kept me company -- hehe at least until hew swam off to hunt for dinner. -sighs- It honestly feels as I am trying to avoid someone... more then just someone! This deep feeling of lust is driving me insane... which isn't good when there are more then one person out there that I would love to have my way with!
So... tomorrow morning I will do the same. I will swim far off the coast and spend the day away from the city. It's not like I can take seeing... blah, sometimes I really do hate having a submissive heart.
After most of the sparing was over I returned to the main city gates. Ah, there as a large crowd gathered. A lovely display ... two dragons dancing above. How they filled the night's sky with such amazing hues. Fire rained down from the heavens from their dance... I was not afraid to get as close as I could...
Part of me wishes I say the evening ended this way... but that is when a slave attacked the dragon owned by Princess Page. This slave soon gave the two captives over to.... none other then Aizen. It turns out her dragon was also carrying is child... erm -- well I think! There was also talk of super sperm... Just the thought makes me wonder about something I know I should not... yet I have laid with him in the past... moving on!
At that moment... part of me wished that I could try to trade places with Princess Page... if only to get her out of that situation. Then I thought about Kito... and changed my mind before I could do anything stupid!
The entire thing did make be feel useless though... I wish I could have done more to help the princess. Ah well, if anything I got a creepy story out of all of this.
Still... something about watching this all... has awakened this primal urge in me. Mmmmhmm... that hidden side of me that very few can bring out. Alas... there is not much I can do about such feelings tonight. I'm not... going back to him. It won't do... to keep dwelling on an old flame.
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I was a bit lonely, so I sought some peace in the darker depths of the ocean... far away from Ireem's sandy shores. Far away from the cries of battle... away from the raids. Once again my blue scales faded to the many shades found in an opal... gently illuminating the area around me... surely he was drawn to this soft light... Or maybe, were were drawn together by a lack of companionship?
He was like nothing I had never seen before... His form covered by dark navy blue and sky blue scales. I couldn't help but notice those tiny... yet sharp looking teeth. Oh and how the curious little sea dragon swam around me excitedly! A petite yet scaly form helped him easily glide through the waters... Even though he had four legs... his tail was more akin to that of a mermaid's. Ah... water dragons are truly amazing little creatures. Okasan told me about them... yet I honestly did not think I would be able to see one up close.
I was was nervous at first... but sense the little fellow seemed to meant me no harm... Hehe, we even played a nice game of hide-and-go-seek! How impressed was I was the small water dragon flowing even her fastest moves... truly did not each us long to find one another. Our game ended a little later... ending with us going to a short hunt for a meal.
I am going to call him Mizuchi -- named after a holy water deity of my past mer tribe. He puffed out his chest proudly at the name... so he agrees! The little guy followed me back to Ireem. Not really sure how I am going to explain him to Kito... or the other merfolk. Oh well~!
It was yet another hot day in the kingdom of Ireem. Most of the days drama was stirred up by the raids... This time the Dark Knight's attacked the Undead. How sad it is to see former allies going against each other over something shiny, food, or medical supplies. Ah well... it's probably why I will always be a healer... and will probably never end up on the front lines of any battle.
At least the previous evening went better for me... I had a wonderfully steamy meeting with Kito in the office. Seems as if I bring out the wilder side in him... and this side of him showed during our amazing act of passion. Something that I only really noticed until after he became a merman. Mmhmmm, he is truly an amazing lover. And this act couldn't have come at a better time... As I wrote before, this is the love month for my clan... well the clan that I originally come from. So this month I am more respective to sexual advances...
It's almost the middle of the month... although, a part of me will miss this wilder side. I've never felt more open or more free before! Mmhmm... even wiggling my boobs about at Aizen! Hahaha! Wait... I think he goes by Kumeza now... doesn't matter. I should try to keep it to normal flirting. Sure... the priestess was able to remove the collar... but there will always be that part of me that is connected to him. I can even say the say thing about my first lover. And Kito will always be a part of my heart regardless... mmhmm... I guess... my heart really is foolish. Maybe I should try to flirt with a few ladies as well... the none bitchy stabby in the back type... wait -- that is probably as hard as finding a virgin in kos. Most of the chicks I hang around with are boring straight.
Sometimes I wish I could be like those heartless women... and really move onto the next male, while leave past feelings for others in the dust. I suppose I will never be that way... I will never be like Eve. Running around talking shit about any other female close to Aizen... bitches like her are the reason why good girls finish last... the real reason why I left him. -furiously tries to cross out the last bit... slamming the book onto the floor shortly after-
A quick dip can only calm me down so much. Maybe this lust... keeping my heart betting that much faster is also making. I'll never work up the courage to tell Aizen the truth. No matter.. I am with someone who loves me... and doesn't have a million or so other slave girls. And once this month is over I can go back to being my normal... shy... non-overly flirty self!
Also... it seems the other mer are leaving... well I have not heard that annoying yell of Pushizilla in a while. I wonder if this has anything to do with the raids... sad either way...
Now,back to working on that romance story. I need to focus on the muse from that steam night with Kito...
It's evening... and the hushed song of the ocean has one again lured me to into it's calming embrace. The moon is at it's fullest at the moment. It's soft light reflects so elegantly off the waves...
Gradually my darkened tresses lose their color... replaced by shades that mirror that of a rare opal. The scales along my match those soft shades of pearl, pale pink... sea green... blue... lavender -- deepening on how the moonlight shins down upon me. How lovely the way my opalescent scales seem to reflect that light! In deeper waters these softer shades would reflect any light... the light cast by the dangler of the male's of our clan. It is also a way to let them know which females are receptive. I mean... who wants to waste their time on an ice queen?
Alas, I am far from the deep waters of my home. Tonight I shall bask under the soft moon's glow... alone. I cannot help my whisper a soft song as I gaze upwards into the heavens.
"Chaaron dishaaon mein ye daastaan ho
Ek dil, ek dang, ek jaan
Chaaron dishaaon mein ye daastaan ho
Ek dil, ek dang, ek jaan
Sarhad nah he koyi yahaan
Khuli ye zameen he, khula aasmaan"*
Ah how fortune has smiled upon me... it is the eight day of the month... so these cravings should only last for another -- pauses to count on fingers -- Twenty-two days! Damnit! That's too long! It's a good thing my hair and fines will go back to normal in the morning... so the cravings will remain. But I think I can stay focused on work. The idiots of the Irem have a way of magically killing sex drives! Plus... I have to get back to that roman story.
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*"In every direction, let this be the philosophy
One heart, one colour, one soul
In every direction, let this be the philosophy
One heart, one colour, one soul
There are no boundaries here
The earth is open, open is the sky" lyrics by Nitin Sawhney.
It started off like any other day. I had just visited the office to pay rent...when something started to irk me. I really can't say what this was. But, never one to ignore such a feeling... I quickly left the office.
I headed to my normal spot near the front gates. To my surprise there were cries of battle! Okay... I am really not that surprised at this point... And the cause of all of this chaos? It seemed the Dark Knights raided the Mer-temple... taking the last of the food...
Anyway! Sense I am a self proclaimed healer... I would never dream of picking up a sword to injure another. I flocked to the scene to help my wounded friends and allies. Ah... how Daisy fought so bravely... truly a wonderful regent!
Sadly, the merfolk lost... so we retreated to a cool dark place to help heal the wounded. Blah, I swear this is one of the few places that gives me the creeps. But! In order to heal I had to push back those fears.
But I found out something most remarkable... it seemed a certain someone has returned to the undead. Hell... Aizen. I'm not sure if he is really going by that name... but it's not as if he is going to sneak up behind to correct me... -stops writing to look over her shoulder- Never mind...
Now, where was I! As a small show of thank I gladly healed him when he asked. I would do anything to help him... mmhmmm how talk of him splitting some poor girl's flower make me so -- damn it! I cannot wait until my mood as calmed. Dare I write... that I almost asked to join in? Lala... just think of... ermm... something non sexy! Yes... like... erm...a full gown with heavy veil! So heavy... makes me want to get nude... -head desk- Eh, good thing I have decided to avoid most people... no one will know a thing!
That is right.. I will just keep quiet and suppress these urges. What's the worst that could happen?
Naughty me! Naughty naughty naughty... As for the romance story I have decided to base it off of the mer legend I mentioned yesterday. I can through in the plot twists from my own life... just gotta make sure no one can tell wo I am referring to in the story.
It feels as if the desert sun is ten times as intense today... ah, instead of milling around the front gates, I did what any good little mer-girl would to... took to the waters. Mhmm... there is something about the feel of cool water against my scales...
Oddly enough the cooling waters are not enough to quench another thirst. Back home... our mer tribe called it "Ai no Tsuki" ... the month of love. Rituals that center around love and mating our held during this time. The festival of Mizu no hanayome is the first... the tale of the mer-girl who fell in love with the mighty god of the sea... Akua-kami. There story reminds me a bit of a tragedy... with jealously and betrayal... but in the end of the tale the two lovers are able to look past it all -- haha and do what lovers do... mate! Thus the legend of how our tribe was started.
So this month couples are encouraged to form loving bonds... or what they call in the sands marriage. Ah, but this is so much more meaningful. Once a couple bonds they remain together... their souls destined to meet, even if they are reincarnated.
It is also rumored that this month is when we are most fertile/virile... More reason for me to take to the seas to cool down! My more flirtatious side is showing... in my walk... smile... I would have even given a lovely bit of pleasure earlier...mmhmm -- going to spend most of my time in the water! I don't need a B-A-B-Y...And I cannot imagine what would happen if I ended up bonded to someone I meet while "in heat".
It was a bit surreal... and I am thinking that I half dreamed the entire thing. I saw him... and he didn't run off immediately. At the same time... I couldn't bring myself to say anything. Could this be a good case of "cat got your tongue" shyness... or does my silence have any meaning?
Not much happened after... there were a few odd looking critters about. Freckles had one... Nova had one... or were they just the same creature? They each had an interesting mix of cute and creepy... heh... not ugly enough to be called creepy. But still, I have never found anything that looked that close to a squirrel to be called cute.
But.... the funny part happened when one of his slave girls rented up. Always funny when a submissive can make a dom do odd things. I really shouldn't have laughed... there was talk of rape... and something about being rapped by ghosts? His ghost? I laughed so hard I fell off the pillar I was sitting on. Even Princess Page was there laughing at it all... Blah... more poor right boob has taken so much today! Doesn't help that I nearly feel three times earlier... running around like a nutter surely couldn't of made things better.
Oh well... once the laughter settled it almost felt as if I awoke from a dream. He went off when his slave girl...
It all just feels like a nightmare anyway... embers of a burned out passion laughing at me. Think I will fall asleep in the Chronicles office... So when I wake up the next day... I will have an easier chance convincing myself.
I can't believe I keep going over this... but here goes! Lets so... rumors are random tidbits. Most of the time they can start of harmless enough. One person says something about so and so... and from there on it can slowly grow... until you are left with something -- horrid! I monster of lies and random crap thrown in for good measure.
Some woman said that I missed someone... I find it funny that said woman randomly knows what is going on in my head -- when even I don't understand that! When asked... I couldn't exactly deny it. Could anyone miss someone who is always running around with some
Doesn't really answer that rumor... I mean, the heart wants what it wants. But at some point it's best to let logic take control. So do I miss him... not even going to let myself admit that.. -sigh- it doesn't matter at this point. Man alive am I feeling moody... ah well! It's nothing a little broiled fish with mint sauce won't cure!
Now! On to something less depressing... romance. I think I will write the story about "star crossed lovers". Maybe from different races or groups... like Maji and Dijinn... Of coarse their two sides don't want said couple together. But... their love is so strong it melts the anger of the two sides.
Mmm... but would such a tale end badly for the two lovers? I could have the Magi get killed by one of the Dijinn family members... then the lover rushes into the scene and commits selfless act before leaping to their death... or something like that.
Ehh-- it all sounds good in my head. I will start off on the lovers... how they meet, and their steamy passion! Mmhmm... so amazing it melts the very sands beneath them.
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