Blood on the Sands

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I wish I could write about everything being fine... that the days gone past have been has perfect as I know they will be. How I long to write about how blissful and at peace I am... but no! This week... has just been the worst. I saw two of my mer sisters get attacked without warning... by a leader from the Dark Knights... And it wasn't just him... there were others attacking that evening. Well... more like a group of spoiled babies through a temper tantrum with swords! Yeah... show em just how brave you can be by attacking a group of unarmed people!

 And now I have strengthen my resolve to never lift a hand to help heal any dark knight... not even that person. Hell, I don't think he goes by the same name anymore. Not sense he left the Djinn. No matter... One should never trust a man who has multiple female lovers.

I hope to take my mind off things my writing a few steamy romance tales for the chronicles. Maybe I will write something from life? Yeah... I'll change a few details and such to spice things up.

Maybe later though... my heart is not up to writing. Added, I don't want to hear anything about romance either. Looks like I will head to the library to look up tarot cards. Far too quiet at the moment... calm after the storm? Or maybe... calm before? Either way I feel like hiding somewhere.

 

Something More?

0 comments Posted by Unknown at 4:42 PM


(Me at the Wedding... hope to  have more images of it later... )



I found myself seated in a grand hall... guest dressed in their finest, bride's maids in gold... grooms men in fine suits... A bride dressed in shades of brilliant red silk. Is this a dream... no it was Princess Lexie's wedding. It was such a lovely affair, straight from the parchment of a romance author. Mmhmm, I felt so happy for the couple... hehe I even ended up dancing on a table! Felt a bit dizzy after... little woozy. Eh, must have eaten a bit too much lamb. Always upsets my stomach... 

Mmhmm... now where was I At the end of this wonderful event... things returned to normal. Well, at least for me. I still have to deal with the fact that my heart still pines for two different people. Low and behold... logic is finally starting to kick in! I have decided to... decided to try to pick one.


But as dear oira no tokoro no nēsan once said "Passion is not love... when you find the one who makes you wish to me a true woman -- you will know you have find the one you are meant to be with"

I just need to pick the one who makes me feel this wonderful... without sex. I mean sex is amazing but... there is so much more to being in love with someone then physical passion.



Past: Death In reverse  
Present: The Lovers In reverse 
Future: Justice

What this points to is stagnation in the past... indecision in love... but the Justice card finally points to me making a sound choice. I just hope it is one my heart and mind can agree upon... maybe I will finally meet up with a female...

I once thought I had to make up my mind went it came to lovers... but... who I have in my heart is just that. If I am love with two people.. then I am in love with two people. I can't stop my heart from pining after Aizen or Kito... so I am not going to try. And if someone doesn't understand this... then... I don't care. It's my life to live... and I am going to live it! Free from the constraints of others.



 

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