Smiling Behind it All

(When the World Shines: picture of Princess Page and her Prince Consort, Rexie... I will never know such bliss... )

Things in life rarely follow a certain order. Sure, sometimes the stars align, the gods and goddess smile upon the world bringing goodness, light... and everything seems to work out perfectly. As if the tale came straight from the pages of a romance novel's scroll. No, oh no... some mysterious force has decided that my life will never follow such a path. I will never be a perfect anything...

Wonderfully flawed, I am submissive... yet I have never been the type to cling... Deeply introverted, but I hate to be alone. Ahh... no wonder why I struggle so to make up my mind! Surely the star I was burn under must be the twins... and here I thought I had the strong sexual desires of a Scorpio? I certainly have the jealous wicked side down! I feel them... my horns are showing.

On the other hand, I would hate it if my life were perfect. If my heart didn't yearn for past lovers while still seeking others. I've got to live with myself... love myself before I can really expect anyone else to do the same.

Kito... my freedom. We were finally able to meet this past day of the Sun. Kito promised if I did not marry Aizen, he would return to the seas with me. So smitten by this offer that I accepted. In return, Lord Kito promised to protect something I hold very dear to my heart... my freedom. He also brought me back a few things from his latest trip. Wonderful trinkets that I shall always hold dear.

I am not sure if my wonderfully imperfect road that I call life will ever lead me back to Aizen. No matter...as I have written earlier, I am sure he is far to busy making that certain someone dance nude in the sand. Hope that thing gets bitten by a scorpion and dies... Did I really just write that? Mmhmm... I did. Yet, this is my diary... the one place I can really be myself without fear!

No matter, I have a farewell letter to write. I am planing on returning to the seas... so I shall need to have my mermaid form returned to me. I just need to work up the courage to say good bye to those in the palace...

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