There comes a time in life... when we must all move on to new stations in life. And today... I have officially move on. The Sultana has accepted me into the court as a lady! I am no longer a concubine. No longer will I have to worry about Patience picking on Amosa for her attire... or worry about our now "former" Valide every time she randomly decided to take leave without giving prior warning...
Now, I am finally free to work on my sketches. I have already completed a rather charming work for the Sultana. I have another one I wish to finish for her. I hope to present it as a thank you gift for accepting me into the court.
I am not sure what to think about the harem now... I suppose they will be fine. Spending their days worrying over training and dress. Maybe I was not really cut out for such a life? After all... I only joined to help Seren. And now, she has plenty of help... so I am not needed, regardless of what she says.
And now.... I move into the brave new world of a court artist. I cannot help but feel a bit worried. Unlike most ladies, I have no plans of getting married. I wish to fill my life with art... so in time, I can forget about everything that occurred in the harem. Right now... I don't want to feel anything. I wish to feel... numb. I shall focus on another painting, because... I am not sad enough to try to drown my current feelings with wine.
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